• Erin Fedeson

Waggish Writer Week 9 Reflections

Hello and thank you for taking the time to visit Waggish Writer.

Week 9 has arrived for the website that has turned 2 months old this past week. It has been haunting my mind about how well that I am taking care of my website. There has been an ingrained fear that my writing is not good enough or the universe that has been nibbling at my confidence in my writing.


However, I would not have gone down this path if I did not have the belief in myself and the support of those who know me best. They are the ones who I look to for inspiration.


My greatest inspiration that I sneak glances at as I write now is my boyfriend, Mark. He and I have started running a home brewed Hyrule DND campaign with us about to enter session 3. We brainstorm the campaign's plot, review the backstories, and invent ways to keep the game interesting with the players on their toes.


In the game sessions that we host online, Mark takes the lead as DM, describing the setting, interacting with the players, and guiding the story. I take the listening ear and scribe, recording the players' decisions and how their choices played out. I have their permission to utilize my notes to create a FanFiction in the far future, but I intend to note the players and Mark as part of the creation process. I'll be their living bard who will tell the tale of their trials and triumphs. ; ) [A.K.A. the story will take some time to flesh out, and I will need to check in with players to make sure that I am capturing their antics correctly.]


This evening as I write, Mark fine tunes character portraits for the players, magicking up a Rito samurai with a character generator and Photoshop. His dedication to bring to life the characters the players create with the work he spends outside of the game play is humbling to a creator like myself. Where does he get the drive and energy?


It's his passion. It is funny to think that for the longest of times, he wanted to play DND. It was when we started dating a few years ago that Mark got his wish to play. Not long into playing, he took the role of DM (Dungeon Master, a.k.a. the storyteller of the table top game known as Dungeons and Dragons, a.k.a. DND). As a lover of a good story, an avid video game player, and a born improved actor with a gregarious personality, Mark does incredible work. He is an individual of many hobbies that come and go in spurts of creativity. When he hones in on a hobby, he puts everything into it.


That's how I want to be with my writing. One of the fears is that I am turning Waggish Writer into a chore rather than a joy and passion. As I am writing this, reflecting on myself, I am feeling the joy rekindling. My heart is speaking naturally. My mind is assisting in the grammatical details with my fingers dancing across the keyboard.


That's how I want my life to be. A dance of creativity on the keyboard. A ballad of words being strung together to create a living image for the readers. That's the level of quality and joy I wish to bring to myself as I create and as I share with the universe my creativity.


In that spirit, there will be changes in how I prompt my website and how I go about creating content for it. I will be okay with acknowledging that there are some days that creativity will say no. It will say no to working on my big projects. It will say no to updating content for my website. I care about them. And when I work on them, I want to bring my A-game. These are stories I want to tell. No one else is going to tell them. I am their voice. I am the hero. And heroes need breaks from time to time.


With that in mind, I will draw my reflections to a close. Until next week, my friends and visitors. Thank you listening to this evening's rambling reflection.

 

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